the blue bowl

When I look at the blue bowl sitting on my counter I am reminded that life is short. It reminds me to love hard and fast but also to forgive quickly. I am reminded of a time when I didn't have so much to do. So many dishes to wash and clothes to fold, there is always something that needs to be done and it feels like those things cant wait until tomorrow. But what if you don't get a tomorrow? Would it really matter if the dishes didn't get washed and the laundry didn't get folded? It does matter if my kids and husband felt loved. That is what matters I don't want my kids and husband to remember me for my cleaning skills which most of the time are less than stellar. I want to be remembered for the things that do matter. Riding bikes with my kids, answering the endless questions that they ask,  talks with my husband about our hopes and dreams. So when I do look at the blue bowl on my messy counter I smile and thank God for what I do have and not worry about what I don't have.


The blue bowl was the last item my mother gave me before she passed away.

I know I am inconsistant with my blog. Does it make you not want to read it ? Maybe.  Well I did finish my p90 didnt do too well. Probably because medically speaking I really cant do most of the exercises. My foot seem to get in the way of a lot of exercise. Since I have finished that I have started swimming. Low impact seems to be good for me, plus my kids were taking lessons. I didnt just want to sit out in the hot sun and look at my phone. I am trying to get back into my exercising , but its hard. I know its another excuse. I could be exercising now. I have one foot I cut at the pool and my other seems to have an infection in it. Hoping its just an ingrown nail but its possible that its a bone infection from my foot surgery. I had my bone cut, reshaped, graphed and screwed together. Sounds gross huh? It is . I have an ugly foot lol not that feet are cute but a big long scar doesnt really give it that runway appeal.
School is starting next week so hubby and I will be back to one on one time.
No new programs yet but hopefully soon I will have something. Maybe a rower? sounds good to me now to convince the hubby its a  good idea. Until then I will be seeing you.

p90 and other stuff

Today is day 26 of round 1 p90. Sculpt was good, I upped my weights this week and feel the difference.
Tomorrow is cardio. I do most of the exercises but I cant do the yoga part because of my foot. I modify the jumping jacks and running lunges those are still too much for the foot. I do my best though and put in 110% . I also cut my hair yesterday which makes me feel better. Nothing like a good hair cut. Hard to find people to cut it right. I feel pretty with my new "do" and that is almost as important as my exercising. Mental health is important too. So I sit here typing away at my computer now, listening to the birds chirpping outside. I made myself a fresh strawberry and banana smoothie, with fat-free greek yogurt, half a banana and a about a pound of fresh strawberries. I did share with the kids before they left for school. All but one liked it. I put mine in the fridge before I left to take them to the bus stop. Got home made a fresh batch of black tea, probably make some low sugar chocolate chip cookies for the kids. They never can tell when I dont use much sugar. I have been taking them to the park everyday to play with kids and it seems to wear them out. I love to be outdoors (allergies permitting). Summer is coming soon and I wont go outdoors then. Las Vegas is way too hot to spend any length of time outside. Looking forward to being outdoors for the entire two weeks we will be in New Hampshire this summer.
Any way I have a few things to do today. Have a good day to anyone reading this.

Dream and give yourself permission to envision a You that you choose to be.

will i ever run again?

Today I was just thinking, Will I ever be able to run again?
It feels like the answer is no. It hurts to walk, it hurts to stand for longer than 5 minutes.
My poor foot just hurts all the time. If I spend too much time on it then it swells up so big.
Right now the way it feels I dont think I would do it again. The surgery that is.
I feel 100.  Hopefully it will get better with time.

Too much of anything is no good.

I have been walking around all day today. The amount of walking I would have normally done pre-surgery. I walked in the casino which by the way too all the money in my pocket. boo hissss. I then went to Sams Club and walked all over the place.  Then  off we went to the grocery store by that time my foot and leg were screaming. I put away all the grocery I had bought then went and took my shoes off. My foot isnt swollen but my leg and ankle are HUGE. My foot is purple too. So here I sit typing away with a lovely bag of ice on my leg. Lesson learned I can walk too much. ha ha. I will spend all day tomorrow sitting on my behind with my foot up.

Aside from that adventure I am doing alright. Eating like crap again. Its hard to eat right when you have company. oye. I will be back on my diet tomorrow. Gotta FOCUS. summer is coming summer is coming

Summer and gold panning

First off lets talk about summer. We will be taking our summer trip to New Hampshire again. We all love to swim in the lake then go for an ice cream after. It was great last summer. We go to the ocean and the kids play in the water and I hold my nose because I hate the smell. I know right? Someone hates the ocean. Its never been my thing, the seaweed smell gets me everytime. gag.... Then we go to Maine and shop in Kittery, go to the trading post, go to Yummies candy store. We have lobster where I order the twin lobsters just like everyone else at the table but give my lobsters to my husband and eat his and my fries. I think this year we will do lobsters up at the camp aka Grandparents house. We will boil the lobsters and I will boil some shrimp. The kids will probably eat hotdogs (gag), because they dont like seafood. We will go see the bear show at Clarks Trading Post, we go everytime. It never gets old seeing a bear ride a scooter and play (bear-sktball). The girls would like to go to the Polar Caves instead of Lost River. Both are good. the polar caves have more spiders in them though. Perhaps we will drive over to Vermont to see Thomas Jeffersons home, then go up to Canada just for fun. The girls will practice Archery, and it will be fun.

Gold panning,
I am looking forward to trying my hand at gold panning in the great state of New Hampshire. I have never done it before but my husband and father in law have. There are lots of places to go I am sure. I think a bit more research is needed. Hubby also wants to go to the where the old homesteads were with a metal detector.

I would love to hike a bit of the appalachian trail but dont think I will be ready to do that yet but maybe I will do a little just to say I did some.

Ahhh Research research research.

more later

Foot Surgery and Wheelchair

Decemeber 16 2011 I had to have surgery to correct my foot. I had a Cheilectomy on my right foot. I thought I would be off my foot for a couple of weeks max. Turns out I have been in a wheelchair since my surgery. Its funny how you look at being in a wheelchair before you HAVE to be in one. It looks fun, you get to sit all day people have to help you. Ahhh sounds like the life right? Wrong. This is been the hardest thing I have ever had to do so far. I cant clean , cooking is a nightmare, I cant drive the list could go on and on. Its also funny how people treat you differently, I have people that wont even look me in the eye because I am in a wheelchair. The pain from the Cheilectomy wasnt that bad, but the recovery is long. Hopefully it will be worth it all. I will post an update tomorrow after my appointment. Fingers crossed that this one dr will let me start walking.

Happy Valentines Day