FEET!

I have a foot issue, seems as though I have a case of arthritis in the my big toe joint on my right foot.

going to the foot doctor on Thursday hopefully I will have something to say about it. Right now I cant run on it and it gets very stiff and pops when I flex it. I cant wear heels at all. I tried to fit my foot in a heel at the shoe store but it didnt work . hurt so badly I gave up .  I dont wear heels often but stinks that I cant wear them even if I wanted to.  I will report back when I get done.


BTW wahooo three days until Breaking Dawn.

The house wife to her husband

Listen to me
and I will listen you
care about my emotions and
I will care about your physical needs
make me feel needed and
I will show you I need you too
Believe in me and
I will believe in you
Love me even though
I have always loved you.

oh please lottery let me win

So I have my next set of tickets will last me until the end of november. It stinks living in a state with no lottery. So I have to drive to California to get tickets, not like its really far but further than just going to my local gas station. I picked my usual numbers just hoping for them to get picked.
Making my weekly football bets tomorrow. NCAA, NFL ya know the works. Do I really care about football? na not really just want to win. So if I am betting on a game I am right there watching the game.
If I lose my bet I would turn off the tv but my husband likes to actually watch them even without betting on them.  We also like to bet on the horse races when we are at the sports book. Those are fun to watch, I love horses. The other day I bet on one that was like 42/2 and wouldnt ya know it He won. I about came out of my seat. lol. it was pretty funny. I then bet on a trifecta (sp?) all was going swimmingly then this big black horse came out of no where and one with my three in the order I picked but behind him . So I lost. maybe next time I will throw out a banana peel so he slips and wont mess up my bet. I would have won 128 dollars for my 2 dollar bet. oh well. Thats why they call it gambling. I have a bingo tournament coming up too. I love bingo. I sit there right along with the old ladies. Love every minute of it too. My hubby doesnt like to chat in bingo, so I talk to him anyway. lol.
So along with the bets I also have work to do tomorrow. Have to get ready for the garage sale, gonna sell off a bunch of my stuff, including my beautiful fake tree. I decided that I would like a real tree this year. Allergies be Damned I will have something real in my house. I can hardly wait to have the scent of the woods in my home. I may live in the sand but for Christmas I will pretend to live somewhere I actually like. I wasnt cut out to be a desert dweller. I use to get cold all the time but after the hysterectomy years ago I am hot as hell and living in hell just makes this horrible.

So those are my complaints and hopes
recap
hate nevada
wants to win money to move out of this hot ass place.

so enjoy the small things while you can, dream big because everyone needs a dream.
and love, tell people you love them everyday, the last thing you want to live with is regrets. we dont always get a tomorrow so make today count.

finding a job in Las Vegas

I swear I will just give up. Finding a job here thats not flipping burgers is impossible. I have hours I can and cannot work. I want to move away from here. The crossing guard here told me that the unemployment rate has gone up to 18 percent. While that seems high, its probably right. Companies are not hiring. Mom's that havent gone to work in ages cant get jobs because they dont have recent experience. Nothing like a kick in the teeth, you stay at home to take care of your kids and get penalized for that. Crime seems higher, not surprised about that either. Thought about going to school but I dont want to start a nursing program before I move. Hopefully we will move to where its quiet, and my kids can play outside. Probably could find a job easier. I have heard people say that they find jobs once they leave Las Vegas, hope that is true for me. That or I win the lottery. I have my numbers picked an waiting for them to come up. Until then. I guess I will remain a unemployed house wife, which my husband assures me is easier than "real " work.  I would love him to try this out. Our kids would eat him alive.
Oh well time to eat some more bon bons..

later

Combatting my seasonal allergies

Guest post written by Beth Ann Dwyer

There are so many things to think about when it comes to dealing with my fall allergies. For one thing, I like to switch my eye makeup because it seems like I'm constantly rubbing my eyes when it comes to allergies. I'm kind of bad about doing that anyway, so I need some eyeliner and mascara that stays put rather than just making a raccoon eye mess when I'm dealing with allergies.

I thought that this time around I would try and find a new brand of waterproof eye makeup. I looked online with my wireless internet Raleigh to find some good suggestions for waterproof mascara, especially. I came up with a few and decided to go and test them out at a beauty counter to see what I thought of them.

getting a job in las vegas

No I am not on welfare,  or social security. I am not a vet. I am a normal mother of four. I have been a stay at home mom on and off for 14 years. My husband God bless him wants me to get a job. He works very hard at a thankless job. He is my hero but that's not what this is about. He wants me to get a "mick" job. Is that what I want?  No! I want something that I am not ashamed to admit I work there. In this day its not something that you want to admit,  Hey I work at McDonalds flipping burgers. I dont want to work in fast food, I dont want to work at a gas station. I dont even want to work at a bank. I am 33 years old and I would like to think I have made it further in life. So where do I want to work? Somewhere I can use my creativity and have an opinion. I was going to work for this online company but during my third interview I was asked if I was going to be available 24 hours a day. No of course I am not, I have children whom are not going to spend their lives being cared for by someone else. I dont trust people enough with my kids. Too many bad guys out there that want to hurt people. I have a certain number of hours to work, 8am to 5pm and thats it. My kids do matter to me a great deal, their education matters to me. I want them to be the best and be great members to this crazy ass society.  I know reading this it sounds like I dont want a job, your right I dont. I do want to be better off financially. I want to give my kids more, I want my husband to be able to go and buy things he likes. I have given my life to my kids and family. I have been mommy for 14 years, some say I lost me. I didnt lose me I just reinvented the old me. How do parents do it? How do you balance family and work. How do you work for a place that you dont believe in? I guess I could write a book or two.
I have had a very interesting life. I think the things I have to say is interesting. Are you interested? Do you want to know more about me?  who knows. 
I have dreams. I see shapes in the clouds. I sing in my car out of tune and humm the words I dont know. I like to talk to my husband and kids about what would I do if we had millions of dollars.
Even with tons of money I dont want a lot of shiney flashy things. a nice house in the woods with lots of land to grow a garden on.
I need a job, because I just cant seem to win the lottery. 
have a nice day.

sticky note for later

A blank. every have so many things in your head that they cant make it on paper? 
Thats me today. I need to work on putting thoughts on paper as the day goes on so I dont forget.
i'll try to write more later.

for my husband

I was in the dark, I didnt know how to find my way until you turned on the light in my heart, and I found my way to you. 
Still after 10 years of marriage that light still shines so bright for you.

How could you

this is really bugging me. I cant believe that the cold hearted wretch got away with murder.
Casey Anthony, you are a vile human being. To the jury how could you find that evil woman not guilty.
All of America saw the trial , we all saw the same as you jurors did. We were all screaming GUILTY, while you said NOT GUILTY. What a blow to the stomach, hearing that verdict I could have died.
That poor little girl wont get justice. I can only imagine what that poor girl was thinking in her final hours of her life. Why did my mommy do this. This woman no cant call her a woman "this THING" should be sterilized. People who kill their children or any children should have their right to be a parent taken away.  I am so sad for this little girl.  I guess the comfort I get is knowing that God will take care of her punishment. 

RIP Caylee

Sin City Fireworks

So we went out last night to watch fireworks. We sat on the edge of the back road behind the M Resort.
Several people parked behind us. Kind of made me mad that some of the people dont have enough common sense to turn off their headlights. I mean they were shining right in my car. Anyway so while we sat in our car with a perfect view of Las Vegas and Henderson, we watched all the illegal fireworks being launched. 9:00 was the firework time. Finally after what seemed like an eternity waiting the fireworks started launching. Right away I was sad, the fireworks being launched off the M were totally lame. Didnt even look like fireworks, they looked like someone firing off a ton of flares. I wish we had gone to Green Valley Ranch to watch because we could see those in the distance and they were nothing short of amazing.  Earlier in the day we had talked about driving to Colorado to see fireworks, yea we are that crazy to drive 12 hours to see fireworks over a lake. We have seen them there many years and they are always fantastic. If we werent taking a long vacation in a week then we would have gone. Next year I hope that a fireworks road trip will be in the cards.  If not then I will take my family and we will watch over at the Station Casinos.  We did launch our own LEGAL fireworks at the house and they were okay. Nothing like I remember as a kid. but I wouldnt let my kids hold roman candles like I did, or light bottle rockets. But I would let them hold a sparkler. The sparklers that we got the kids were funny. They lasted at best 15 seconds, Lame. We will try again next year though with better ones. all in all the kids had a great time and so did I but only because I was with them and enjoying life.